People are always surprised that I’ve stuck it out with my sabbatical from dating for a year and some. They always ask why or how or when will you date again? As if I’m suppose to be in a relationship. I find it even more funny that a year ago when I was dating someone, everyone was shocked and asked why? what bout?And the list goes on…
My girls think I’m single cus I’m scared that every guy is like the last one I dated. My boys think I’m single cus my standards are too high and apparently will never be met. My parents think I’m single because they feel no one is good enough for me. And for a minute, I questioned why I was single. I thought I was damaged goods, crazy or whatever you name it, I probably thought it.
But then I woke up and realized I’m single because God called me to this season in my life and I ought to embrace it while I can.I’m starting to think that this has been the BEST season yet, if it is even a season. I’ve been learning more about Him, growing in my relationship with Him, serving Him and just falling more in love with Him, everyday.
Because I don’ need to rebound after the last one.
Because I can handle it being alone.
Because I refuse and will never be unequally yoked.
Because I don’t settle and it has absolutely nothing to do with looks or money.
Because I don’t need to fill voids that truly only God can fill.
Because I don’t need to be put on a pedestal by someone else to validate everything I should’ve already known.
Because quite honestly, I wouldn’t know how to balance a relationship right now.
I hate to admit that the guys I’ve dated, I kid you not, ALL OF THEM, used to always tell me I’m too busy. Though it may be true but the other truth they don’t know is that I make time if I know you’re worth it. School full time, work full time, & the little time I do get, I spend it wisely with my fam, girls or just enjoying myself. It’s crazy, I think I like being alone a little too much. Don’t get me wrong, I get lonely too but I can’t even imagine myself being in a relationship right now. The right person at the wrong time is the wrong thing,trust me, I know this.I refuse to settle for short term butterflies and end up with long term trust issues.
So for all those who are concerned and continuously ask,this is for you.Don’t get me wrong, I love love and when I love, I love hard. So I love seeing happy couples who continuously keep God the center of their relationship (ya’ll are the ones who give me hope) But for right now, I’m good.
I feel like I always blog about singleness and contentment. Hahaha. This has to be my last one for awhile, I swear. But like I said, for the ones who are worried I’ll never get married, am too picky, am too busy, THIS IS FOR YOU <3 I love you all, I really do.
