“You’re too busy. You work too much. You spend too much time with your family. You’re always out of town. You’re always doing this & doing that…” -From all the guys I’ve dated,why thank you.
In the midst of being busy, I cherish the times I do get to sit down, chill and just have a good ol time with my girls. I don’t get to see my girls too often but when I do it is nothing but laughs, cries, giggles and flat out my getaway from the hecticness. It’s nice being able to sit down and talk about everything from friendships, college, careers, plans & it’s such a blessing to see how God is working in all my girls lives. Everytime I go MIA or am so caught up in the busyness of life, the question always gets asked “so.. are you dating anyone new? hows your love life?”
WELL, riddle me that…
After a year long and MUCH needed sabbatical from dating (I’m thinking of taking it to 2013 or til I finish readingI kissed dating goodbye).I can’t say much. I love hearing and seeing my girls happy. I’m one to be giddy and super happy for my girls especially in the fact one of my bestest friends is married, and I thank God that she blesses me with wisdom from a married woman’s perspective. When the subject is brought up if I’m dating or catching feelings for anyone, it’s pretty much been the same ol, same ol. Same people creepin’ up in the picture & new dudes too and yet nothing has caught my interest to keep me, none have come close to what I believe God wants for me. I’ve yet to meet God’s best for me and I’mgoodwith that.
As much as I do miss being crazy about someone, the butterflies & cupcaking, I start to think about the past 3 years and how much of hell I’ve been through and back. The not so nice stories, the boohoo stories and the whole nine, is what I don’t miss. So, when I have nothing to speak on regarding my love life and the fact that I’m not dating anyone new, I’ll take pride in that. I’ll take pride in not having anything to say rather than having some dysfunctional, insecure relationship to speak on. I’d rather have nothing to say then have my girls look at me dumb and wanna slap me for trynna settle with a nigga that clearly is hitting below my standards. Wheeeeeeeew.
Anyway. My girls, I do adore. Aside from God & my fam, I love being able to fall back on them. I’ve learned to be alone without being lonely. But when the times right, when God says go and gives me His best…. <3 the world will know.
Til then, I’m good with where I’m at. No need to disturb my bLiss.
